Segi College

Yes , I always say this to myself , I'm not famous like others so not many people gonna read my blog & they don't give a shit of my live but blog is kinda like a diary :) Soon is gonna be June . Since 1st of March till now I didn't get the chance to go back to Kulim . Of course i have a reason . Its been stated in the headline , Segi College . Yeah guys , I'm in college life . I started on 9th of April . Everything went well , got a few friends but no hot chicks in my class . No offend girls :P Group B have way cuter girls :3 Homework's , course works , assignment are the few reason that i can't go back during holidays . Plus I have a serious injury going on my knee . Its been 3 month I'm on the recovery stage process . I can't really go out often and all i go is college and hospital :( Well its ok , I'm not gonna burden anyone . My sis disagree with me joining in this college . Pfftt.... for month honestly there are many conflict in my family . Bottom line , I can handle it on my own . I'm gonna be finishing my foundation on August 2013 and 3 year degree in Hospitality Management . Soon I'm gonna be 18 & I am the only one who controls my own life . From now on , no more sad post in my blog . I might post other stuff late cause i do have a new commitment & this year is a turning point for me .       

SPM RESULT

Yes guys , I've got my result .

Bahasa Melayu - B
Bahasa Inggeris - A-
Pendidikan Islam - B
Sejarah - B
Science - A-

The five main subject that i hope to get A :P These are the results of 3 more subject that i hate & took it lightly

Commerce - D
Mathematics - E
Basic Economy - E

There you go after 2 years of it , i get this result which i am proud of . 8 of my siblings had taken their results . So yes , I do have competition . I always heard that among 8 of them I'm gonna get low marks & the stupid one . Today i know 4 of their results , 1 of my cousin beat me BUT i too beat someone . I beat 3 of my cousin proofing that I'm not the idiot one . Read my lips , I WILL NOT LOSE TO YOU GUYS & I DON'T WANNA BE & WILL NOT BE A FUCKING GARBAGE LIKE YOU . Yes , my closest cousin cried for a while & call me . I straight away say it with any hesitation . I beat you , him & him . So far now I'm the 2nd among them . AM I STUPID ? AM I AN IDIOT ? NO!!! You guys are . I'm proud of myself , no fails & at least got 2A . I know other student got 10A+ frankly speaking I don't give a shit . I'm a gentlemen , I shook & congratulate the students with good results & walk away like a man . But it's personal between my family . Now I will study hard & make sure my career will be better than you guys . I'll change my life completely , earning more money than you guys .

December , January , February , March......

Hey guys , it's been 3 month i never active my blog . I promise to update on my status & all but yeah I was kinda busy . Now is 2012 man , many things happened & soon more things gonna happen . Although is kinda late i did wanna share with you guys about my life after ending high school . 1st , who did go to Avril Lavigne's concert ? Well I do :) I do have the video but I'm lazy to put it in here . I went with my sis & my lil cousin sis . 

Owrite , what else . I'm gonna go kinda fast & simple here . Oh yeah , I'm on my way to get my drivers license . Yeah I know my friends who are same age like me had it way before me but who cares . LMFAO is coming on 29th of March at Sunway . Guess what , IM FUCKING GOING :D I bought the Samsung Zone RM298 . I didn't bought it on the early bird time cause i can get it for maybe RM258 maybe . Well its ok . January Foster The People showed up but I didn't go . February Avril & March LMFAO I go . April , not mistaken Jessie J is coming . Should i go ? We'll see :)

 So yeah guys , after ending school high school for the past 4 month starting from December till now its all about concerts , event & more . Today i was suppose to go to Water Place . They have a event call Metaforce 2.0 . I couldn't make it cause my knee is injured . Since i didn't go , i receive a phone call saying TODAY i can take my driving test but it cancel due to heavy rain . So yeah , 2 things today cancel :P Its alright . 21st of March I'll receive my SPM results guys , wish i can get more than 5A's . And soon I'm gonna head to college & continue study to pursue my goal in the hospitality & tourism field . Owrite guys , that's it from me . Next post will be about my result . Abaiyo ;)

New Year Eve 2012

Hey guys , I'm kinda disappointed with myself . All thing revolve around me seems to give me false hope  & I'm the one getting blame . Here I am sitting in front of my laptop which supposedly had reach Kedah , Kulim long time ago . Because of family I've disappoint my friends , because of my friend I'm the one to blame from my family . Ironic eh . Me & Jia Yew plan to go to Penang to have a trip also celebrating new year at Hard Rock Cafe . As I mention earlier in my previous post , we will be staying at my aunt's house . Hotel is the last options for us . We're not that rich :P Anyway my sis agree in bringing him & I to Penang . She told me 9.30pm we'll be leaving . Now its 2.57am , 3 minutes later I have to wake her up . She say she's tired from work & told me she wanted to rest . What can I say ,  she's my dearly sister I can't be harsh on her & not be understanding . My mom & dad scolded me saying what kind of schedule is this . Don't think for yourselves , what about Jia Yew . In my parents view ,  they will feel ashamed . Mama , papa I know but what can i do . There's no ticket cause its late at night . They say Malay's like to be late & all . I can't argue but to just say yes . Plus , I have to apologize to my parents & Jia Yew . In this point no one understands me get it . In my mind , there's this voices keep on saying go ahead blame your sis . But i couldn't . Now i realize AGAIN why I DON'T NEED FAMILY & FRIENDS . I could have taken the bus & go but my sis say lets go together . Now i feel the hope that is given to you & taken back from you . You feel sort of agree , lost your innocent , sad , moody & more . Because of this my new year eve went bad . I can't blame anyone but myself . Right just now my feeling & emotion was feel with thrill & full of hope . Now , those things are getting colder , darker & fading away . My aunt call say , relax you gotta understand others . FOR HOW LONG !!! HOW LONG I NEED TO CARE & UNDERSTAND OTHERS! WHEN PEOPLE GONNA START UNDERSTANDING ME!! Now Jia Yew is sleeping heavily on my bed , I look at him i feel so guilty . I told his parent we were going on a family trip . They were happy & relief now , they will say i break that promise , I'm a lire . These will effect me not my sis or my parents . ME!! YOU GET IT!! I just hope after i wake up my sis things will be better . What I'm looking forward in 2012 , MORE FALSE HOPES PLEASE . That's all for now readers . FUCK OFF!!!

Moving on ( Rock the world )

Yup , the title says so . Moving on , currently is already 30th of December . New year is in 2 days time . Today I'm gonna leave KL & go to rock the world at Penang . Last year i did went to Penang & had my dance of new year 2011 at Gurney Drive . I was planning to return there on 2012 but my sis say lets go hit the floor at Hard Rock Cafe Hotel . I'm like wow , sure thing , I have absolutely no problem . I want to go Gurney cause some of my friends will be there . Well , family is more important . I want to share my happiness of new year with them . If they go to the hotel don't tell me I'm gonna spend my time & dance alone at Gurney . This time is gonna be special cause Jia Yew my blood is tagging along . We've been to club & bars , well he's not a dancer like me but he enjoys listening to club music . Entrance fee RM76 . Even kids can join . My sis say it will be more happening there . So I say yes quickly . I've already rock at Gurney on 2011 , 2012 will be at Hard Rock Cafe Hotel . Well guys , that's it for now . No pics to show but i'll try to upload any pics on new year alright . Abaiyo , wanna take bath . 

The Answer

Guys sorry for not updating any new stories . If there are people reading my blog i just have to say thank you . I did wrote that after ending my SPM there will be excitement in my life . Yes , i do have fun & i had my ups & down . So far the things I've already accomplish were going to prom on the 14 of December . I guess i will wrote & tell you guys my previous time i had . I can't believe its gonna be 2012 :) Well prom was one of the moment where we seniors gather for the final day as a group & family . It was held at Hilton Hotel . My date ? Haha.... i was gonna bring a girl that i had crush on but i didn't . I brought my cousin Allysha & both of us had our time there . I'm not being force to bring her or what , its my decision . I feel like i should share with her the feeling of having prom together . Well I'm a gentlemen so no lies to the girl i like , i bravely & honestly tell her that I'm not bringing her instead my cousin . She's cool with it & thank me for being honest :) I feel happy she understands . Why bringing your cousin as date ? Its lame ? Guys prom is not about bringing dates or hot girl , its about having fun with the people you love like friends & family . Its good to share your happiness . Yes , i dyed my hair & bought a RM700 suit . Nothing fancy . Cha had bought her's earlier at Penang . In fact both of us and our sisters and bro had a fucking awesome day before prom . They came to KL like 4 days before prom so we had fun . Again , I'm sorry I didn't post any pics of it that time . You guys read the tittle " The Answer " , I will get to it . Prom was actually quite dull for me . Yes , there were dance & all . When i check my photos in Facebook i realize my picture was little only . Well i don't give a fuck . After finish dancing , i did cry & feel confuse about LIFE . That's where i want to find the answer . I realize even though i had fun with my siblings , i get angry , sad , confuse easily . I can't really control myself . I went out from the ballroom & did actually cried a bit in front of my cousin sis . You see i had some things going on my mind . I fail 3 times in my computer test for my driving license . I feel insecure & more . My mind keep on saying there's no need to have FAMILY & FRIENDS . I couldn't really think . How I get my answer ? Well i did met one of my tuition friend . I hadn't met him for 1 1/2 year & he kinda feel what i feel so i express myself & talk to him . Yes , i don't need friends but if i talk to myself people gonna think I'm crazy or something . I was like at the end of life but there is a new begging i have to find . After meeting him , i did what i had to do .I get up rise back to the occasion & get myself up . I divided my time & do things that I've wanted to do . This time all about me , no friends , no family , no help . I succeed . I pass my test get my L license . Next year , I'm gonna start practice driving . 1 reason I'm down is , i kinda let my little cousin bro down . He wanted me to drive badly so we both can hang out all night long but i fail constantly . Yes , yes i hate defeat , i hate losing , i hate failing . That's why i can't except myself . I fail to keep my promise . He won't feel anything but i do . Besides driving , there more things going on . I constantly crying on night , i feel as if I'm all alone already . Actually i don't mind being all alone without love ones . Why love them if they hate you or don't appreciate you . Now i realize , without them all along , i wouldn't be the guy today . Is true what my sis told me , I am independence but once in a while you do need help . Help from them to be closer to you . In fact , i feel like I'm the one who is dividing myself apart from them . After getting myself straight , i feel better . Now , i do things one by one . Most of my mates are going to national service this January , tomorrow they want me to hang out with them :) What else , Foster The People is coming soon . So as Avril Lavigne , my favorite single female singer . I'm going to Japan on the February . I realize , i don't reach the ending yet . My ending is when i lose my final breath . Other kids are starting their school life as usual . Me ? I still have 3 month left . 1st of January 2012 i will rock the floor at Gurney Drive , Penang to celebrate the new year revolution . I have so many things to do & share with you guys . Now is 28/12/11 , I'm sitting here chilling thinking to be better everyday & use my life to the fullest . No more crying , no more anger issues & no more confusion . I will be the Midzi who is the happy go lucky son of a bitch that people recognize . The answer for me will be , " No matter how far & strong you are , there will be people still loving you strongly & expect you to love them even more " . Maybe they won't read this but Cha , Man , Eina , Ain , Khaireen :3 , i want to see you guys & spend time more with you guys . Is it ok with you guys ? Yours truly , Haseo :) 

P.S - I'm not dying , I just find myself back :D Catch you guys later .    

The End & Celebration :)

Perrgghhh.... gila babi ah , I admit i seriously don't feel anything after officially ending my SPM . Fun part today was the time i spend playing laser tag & pool & more with HaaZiq Hamzah , Marveyn da Lingam , Lim Jia Yew , Amir Shazrin Zulkifli , Kevin Tan & Abang :P . 16 hours away from home , guys this was the best celebration to end our senior years . I guys I would like to start from morning . My econ start at 11am . So i was planning to wake up on 9am , suddenly Din call me he on the way fetching me from my house to school . I was like damn blur & i agree . I asked him come later than out of no where he text me say he already reach down my condo . Haha... fuck man i have to rush , bath & all then go down . We went for a breakfast at Ampang Jaya then head to Taman Tar to chill around there . Suddenly Jon came & asked us to accompany him for breakfast . I get to use Din's car & drive a bit :P Woo... I don't feel like taking license anymore . Second breakfast was at Desa Pandan which is near to my school . Those two guys race from Ampang to Desa Pandan . Quite scared i was huhu.... After reaching to school like usual , i took my last paper Economic . Out of nowhere I feel this sudden urge to you know just do it as fast as i can & chin chai only . Yup , i went out from the hall first & many people don't expect me to leave that early . My heart & brain is free & we headed straight to Mid Valley to have our awesome celebration . Like I say 16 hours away from my house , of course we did more things where i think i won't literally post it all on here . Mugi plan that on the 9th of December we as a group will hang out & chill at Port Dickson . Haha... kinda of a sudden but i'm seriously low on cash plus i seriously want to get my license before prom which is on the 14th of December . With money short & i want to take a break , thanks to today i spend all of my money and that's one of the reason why i don't wanna go . I don't wanna hurt Mugi's feeling and postpone the trip because of me but he got to understand me as well . Well so far its a 50-50 , maybe go maybe not . People will surely keep asking about my result , alright guys this is my rough estimation alright . If god's will , 6A 1C 1E :P like of course i really hope can get a better result . This is just my target . Well that's the past man , nobody can rewind time . That's it from me today & I am so back into blogging . Until then readers , abaiyo ;)